The stolen kisses

2010-09-25T01:19:00.000-07:00

2010-08-05T08:06:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

2010-08-05T07:58:00.000-07:00

Love the curve

I hate you for being a jerk ! such a sweet talker and womanizer. Fuck off!

2010-07-30T21:43:00.000-07:00

Don't go fluffy boo

Okay, it's been awhile since I update you dear baby bloggy, I was so freaking busy. The best part is classes were cancel je and I was busy lepak with bella's and the gang. Bella, you're rock ! Lepak until 2 am in the morning.was over night at her house for couple of days. thanks bella =) I love you .

Hmm , I had issued with my so call bff. I don't know what to say anymore. I tried my best to keep up with you but seems you already over the limit. I don't blame you 100% but still blame yourself for once, could you? stop being selfish!

I wondered something, who the hell in d'rempah who always paid for my drinks? who are you? I know you're my secret admirer but for fuck sake I wanna know who the hell are you. btw thanks =) next time belanja lagi. HAHA

Ouh, yeah went for movie at Bukit Raja with Bella , hajar, dalf, asib, naz, yaya, anis and afiq. I had fun that night. you guys rock my day! =) even the fucken movie ntah pape and I understand nut. haha She promised to join us but till the end she didn't turn up ! you just said sorry to Bella. how about yr bestfriend???

other than that, I already got myself hell out of MAIS, at last ! staying in sek 7 right now. A lil sad cs tk dapat stay with my gang =(

I missed my fluffy boo like a lot =( wish you miss me as much as I do. I'm sorry about my past posts. doesn't meant to hurt but my blog is the place I express my feelings even tk semua I wrote it down here. I still have a diary. everything inside! A relationship should be between two people not the whole world. loves,

that's all for this week. will update more often!

2010-07-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

I look so gedik in this picture. damn, pornstar. haha

People keep saying i'm sombong. ouh yes. I am but you have no gut to say that because you don't even know me. get to know me before make that stupid statement, morn. well I don't really give a damn. haha who cares !

today is FRIDAY. for the first time I wore baju kurung. I'm proud of myself todayyy ! yay! haha

I'm having issues with certain stuffs. hmm. people changed in just a blink of eyes. we used to be so closed but now we're getting far apart. who to blamed? hmm. well, actually I knew it this gonna happen and yeah its happened. I don't wish it to become true but jyeah. screw this feeling. I can survive.

So what if I wear bikini , speak english instead of bahasa , makan tk reti guna tangan , awkward with malays situation. so what? I'm getting use with all that. but not makan with hand lah. that want memang tk biasa lah. well I'm still a muslim. islam. don't judge based on my life style. have a life instead talking shit about me. I never give double fuck cs I know one day you'll find I;m better than yourself yang terribly lifeless.

2010-07-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

did you know how much I love you ?

ouh jyeah, time for me to update my baby bloggy. hmm jyeah. I had a fun day these few days. I went for date with him and him ;) I love you.

I missed the way you looked at me. the way you annoyed me. the way you hold my hand. sayang, thanks for loving me.

2010-07-20T08:45:00.000-07:00

dear baby, sorry for not updating you these few days. I've been busy with some stuffs. I watched ECLIPSE already. better than new moon=)

I'm not happy with one of my group member. I'm trying my best to keep up with you guys, I just need yr attention and commitment. that's all. is it too hard?

ouh yeah, last night I lepak with this guy. He's cool =) Bella jangan jeles. haha can't wait for the another lepak-ing time with you =)

toodles

2010-07-14T08:48:00.000-07:00

why I terasa ? :(

2010-07-13T03:43:00.000-07:00

MUSE accompanied me this evening. =) you guys always rocking my mood !

2010-07-12T10:36:00.000-07:00

I said bye but actually I want you to stay

2010-07-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

Mood disturbed and my baby bloggy is my favourite place.

I think I know why I'm acted like a pms bitch. I can't get my mind off you. I kept thinking about you you and you like farken hoe. gosh, I'm too tired to cry anymore. I can't take it anymore fake myself in front people. it's pain and killing me. I don't feel like writing , typing , doing assignments. I just need a hug. A warm hug will do.

2010-07-12T04:48:00.000-07:00

I need someone to comfort me
I need someone to cares me
I need someone that call me every night
I need someone that put me first in everything :)

2010-07-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

12/07/10

dear bloggy ,

I had a very exhausted day today due to lack of sleep like a again. Slept at 0500 last night and woke up at 0930. Class as usual nothing special. I love sir razlan's class. =) I don't know why. class over at 1430. Tengku picked me up in UNISEL so jyeah went meeting his friends to fixed my stupid compaq lappy. thank god I still have another lappy. =) My mood still swing and disturbed. I wonder till when I have to fake myself. Tengku's proposed me today. that's so sweet of you. I've been waiting this moments and you did it today. Did you know I wanted to hear those words all this while but then I realized I'm not excited at all in fact you kena marah from me. I'm sorry. We are close like a couple but I couldn't force myself to love you. I don't want to hurt you. =(

2010-07-11T13:22:00.000-07:00

I want a Cinderella Story and A Notebook Romance. I want to draw your name in hearts and not feel guilty. I want to text you day and night. I want to hold hands with you and show you off to the world. I want you, and only you.

2010-07-11T11:39:00.000-07:00

11/07/10

Its seem I've abandoned you like again. Sorry my baby bloggy. Last night I slept late around 0500, did my freaking assignment. Thank god I made it at last! =) ouh yeah I woke up around 0900. fark. -.- I don't get enough sleep. Went to jalan duta sent Belle afterward headed to Rawang met opah and atuk =) missed them , god knows how much ! :') I felt so exhausted due to lacked of slept. Picked up cha from tuition and back home. Around 1800 I left selayang to freaking mais =( mama I'm so gonna miss you. duh. Had dinner at don't know what restaurant. its quite nice even though the waiter was lil blur and irritating ! please learn languages moron! so jyeah as mama promised we went to find rumah sewa for me =) we found it ! it's room to let! I can't wait to move out from mais ! soon baby soon ! Enough about it , hmm I can't get over you =( WTH? I'm dying seeing you with another girls. I laughed , I smiled but deep in my heart , god knows how scattered it is. I wish you'll aware of it one day.

2010-07-09T08:21:00.000-07:00

02/07/10

Did you feel the same ?

at Ibu's this week. had a very exhausted day. what a day. -.- freaking fever. duhh. massive headache and all.

the best part is I missing you like hell :( monday cepat datang :(

night , xx

2010-07-09T08:17:00.000-07:00

Do you love me ?

It's not like what you think 25/06/10

2010-07-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

25/06/10

My baby blog , I'm sorry for abandoned you for such a very long time. I have stop log in after the incident. now I'm back to you ! how lucky ass are you ! =)
the freaking orientation has ended. I'm not completed the orientation due to my weak antibody. thank god ! =)
haisyh , tomorrow I'll leaving selayang to mais ==' I hate hostel staying with annoying strangers. mama cepat lah cari rumah sewa for me :(

2010-02-17T19:54:00.000-08:00

i wondered around the neighbourhood,thinking is it the end already?
am i trough with you.how i loved everytime you said you missed me,
and i always had missed the feeling of my heart pumping so hard till
it could just pop.you were the longest and also the unexpected but
then again you was just too perfect to be true.those sweet words,
those sweet smiles,and those laughter we exchanged.how i really
wished that time was on my side.how i was so devastated for one
minute and so happy the other minute when everytime you show up.
last but not least i cant belive im over you
-yours truly

ALIVE

2010-02-17T19:43:00.000-08:00

We could write it better than you've ever felt it,
we've got the sunsets in our veins,
and we're only liars but we're the best.
We're the kids who feel like dead ends,
and a tribute to the car-crash hearts.
We're so miserable and stunning,
Yet, we're the new face of failure,
prettier and younger but not any better off.
We'll be your best kept secret
and your biggest mistake.

We are the Awesome Foursome,
and this is Alive, But Barely Breathing.

quiet and you pissed off

2010-02-17T19:32:00.001-08:00

Jimmy Sullivan, you will forever and always be known to me as the guy who chased a duck around a field screaming "Fucking stallion duck!", and the guy who ~~sang~~ screamed back up vocals in Critical Acclaim, and the world's greatest drummer.

I'M A PRINCESS IN MY LALA KINGDOM :)

2010-02-05T04:32:00.000-08:00

I goes by with the name Ashie and Nims Survicho
I'm 18.
I'm fussy,clumsy,bossy,complicated,unexpected,unpredictable,sensitive,spoilt and complain a lot,i mean a loooooottt! :)
I can be harsh,mean and sarcastic at times.

I'm kind of girl who love ATTENTION!
I like the best response when I talk or share about something cs it will make me excited.
thankies to those who always be my listeners

I don't do gossips! Me and my friends usually talk about our stuffs! Fashion,Friendship,Love and Relationship and our non stop 18sx stories xD

I hate unpunctual people and people who break their words. Its MAJOR TURN OFF!
I don't bother to listen to your fucking excuses so fuck it!

I ain't the typical girl. I've been through a lot of things in my life and i'd know bunch of people with different characteristics and that make my mentality widened and different.

I live and miss my past at times. past brought more sweetness rather in present. Arshan Isaac is the only one who understand me and he taught me a lot about live. Thankies ex soul <3

I may not a girl next door kind of girl but I am into family girl. No matter what family come first and they're my main priorities. Yes I am a spoilt brat but mama still can count on me. I have a huge responsibilities towards my sister and lil brother. I have to guide them to the right path. I surely will :)

I grew without papa by my side so I think I don't need guys to survive bcs I can live without them :)

P/S : I love white and pink. especially WHITE. white is so soft,pure,comfy and complicated. I need white when I am down :)

2010-01-28T07:01:00.000-08:00

MR MOO MOO AND MR DOGGIE :)

I'm back !

2010-01-28T06:38:00.000-08:00

geez! after 3 days i'm back! i went to my granny house in rawang. had a great time with eden erin.
they really made my days! love you both. <3 style="color: rgb(255, 255, 153);">mama bubukin cha nuriy! I've to texted these people everyday to know their updates! bubukin you know i missing you like hell!
guess what! I had shopping spree. I went to parkson with eden and i was freaked out! its SALEEEE!!! hee I spent over 200 bucks only at PARKSON! =='
that such a wasted! but i heart my heel :-* :-*
and today i've to go back due to mama force me to come back today!
today such a suck-ished day =='. i'd wait for bus like 30 minutes!! lucky my grandy was company me, so no perv or stupid guys will kacau2 me. thankies atuk <3
And 2 indians in the bus really got in my nerves! they have B.O body odour! god knows how i felt!
I felt like wanna puke!
eeeee!!! i hate typical people =='. why don't you guys buy nives deodorant or something? pencemaran bau you know! duhhh
reach warta , i chose to take cab since i'm having massive headache.
the taxi driver talked a lot and i have to answered him =='
the worst part was he asked my fucking number? wtf??
that time i sorta scared bcs he already knows my house, how if kidnap me or rob or something.
gahhh.. that was so creepy!

2010-01-21T08:39:00.000-08:00

gossip girls :)
can i have this ? :)

2010-01-12T22:16:00.000-08:00

lets talk about how lifeless I am nowadays -.-

I sleep at 4 am everynight and awakes at 8 or 9 something. do you know why? its because of phone calls. long phone call every night and I don't know why people likes to call me in the morning -.- .
thats so rude =.= . I NEED MORE SLEEP! Normally i'll talk to syed safiq al-attas tunku mahzuz william ryan asher wilson and yeah sometime with some random people. geez!
well yeah , i'll have my breakfast around 3 pm , lunch at 5 pm and no dinner! what the fuck is wrong with me? I don't know what i'm gonna do in future. which universities should i apply , what course really suit me. oh fuck! i seriously blank -.-
i can't determine my future. i think a lot and that bothered me alot.
i'm 18 next week but i ain't excited at all like usual. i feel such a fucked up!
beside that , i've a huge issue with guys! i just don't understand them.
what they really want from me? what my ex, isaac told me last night really bothered me.
but yeah, i agree with him because i get close with safiq because of that stuffs. so i agree 40 % of what he said. i don't trust boys! i don't know why!
i got myself stucks with malay guys! so what? but too much of malay around me. i speak malay almost everyday. i think my english getting worst. but that not the exact issues i want to shit it out here. the issue is SHOULD MALAY GUYS BE TRUSTED ? they're too sweet talker , i guess.
yet i feel comfy around them ( not all , some of them ).
should i get to the old asminda? who never give a damn about malay and make her own business with those eurasians , kristang , chindian etc ?
but these malay dudes really distracted me , hmmm. I never give a damn about religions. i seriously fallen for malay guys and i want to date malay but i don't know how either that a right choice?
i think i should fuck myself up -.-
tons of problem bothering me.
i'm a lamer of lifeless princess * gah *

2009-12-22T05:48:00.000-08:00

new bikini from summer :)
i just got excited when i saw this bikini :)
seriously i can't wait to put it on my body , wee xD

bought it at sunway pyramid.

2009-12-22T05:42:00.001-08:00

I heart my wedges :)

2009-12-21T05:48:00.000-08:00

Outta boredom i came up with a story. Just to test my imagination and my grammar, i feel like my grammar getting worst day by day , heh. and yeah i found its still good. I don't really like to use my imagination yet i prefer to write or talk base on my experienced, as say EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER AND LEAD US TO A BETTER PERSON :) .
this is 1 of my imagination crap crossed my mind while waiting for IRFAN HASIF awake from his slumberland ,( guess he's sleeping right now , and will call him soon )

guys,please take a look , THANKIES :)

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Liz sat on a park bench. It was a lovely Sunday afternoon, and kids were running around the playground without a care in the world. Liz enjoyed listening to them laughing and teasing each other, it is the most comforting sound to her. The wind was blowing sweetly, and she could hear the leaves rustling in the trees, as though whispering sweet nothings. How lovely, she thought, while sitting there, with a copy of Persuasion by her favourite author on her lap, unopened. She admired her surroundings. For once, what's inside a book could not beat the colourful scenario around her at the moment.

She observed the people enjoying their day off, some with their loved ones, others alone. A family of three sat down on the grass nearby. The father held the baby up high, while the mother tickles the baby's belly. The proud hopeful looks on the parents face, as their son giggled away, was just priceless.

A younger couple lay down next to each other under the old oak tree, lost in each others arms, watching the cloud passes by, off in their own little world. This is what Jack Johnson meant when he sang "It's just so easy when the whole world fits inside of your arms". Chaos could fall all around them, and they wouldn't have a clue. Now, she thought, that is the power of love.

A teenage girl with big round spectacles sat across from Liz. She had her head buried in a really thick storybook. Occasionally looking up, as though coming up for air, and then back to her storyland again. Her mother sat beside her, shaking her head knowingly at her daughter, who must have reminded her of her younger days.

Everyone seems to be having a great time. Smiling, laughing, but she knew, that beneath that smile, there's a story behind it. What makes us different from each other is not what kind of burden that we carry, but the way we handle it. She thought of her own life, of the long winding road that lead her to where she is right now.

She's been through a lot. Once she even thought of taking the easy way out, of ending the pain in her heart, once and for all. But somehow, all of that seemed to be so far away now that she thought of it. Unreal. Everything seems to be almost perfect now. That last shred of hope that she hung to with her dear life years ago was worth it. God must have answered her prayers. She wondered what makes it all feel worth going through, the obstacles, the ups and downs. She tried to think what had changed her life. Why she feel so content right now, so genuinely happy. It's as though the emptiness that has been inside of her her whole life has finally been filled. She had been lonely for so long, she never even thought that it was possible.

Suddenly, the smell of Oceanus filled the air, and she felt a hand on her shoulder. "Hey Beautiful, what are you thinking about?" and he kissed her, and her 7 months pregnant tummy. And that was when she knew the answer to her questions before. She smiled while twisting the silver wedding band on her finger, looked up and said,You "."

I speak through my heart <3

2009-12-21T05:32:00.000-08:00

IF YOU NOTICED YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I GET MY ASS TO ONLINE EVERY MOMENT CAUSE YOU'RE THERE ..

you made me smile with your brat , i don't care you annoyed me at times because i know i've fallen for you ..

and yeah i'm going for you because i fancy you ...

I love you for who you are, whoever you were and whatever you'll be.
The times when I'm most happiest is whenever you're with me.

I love it when you laugh, I love it when you smile.
Every time you do I do the same and everything seems worthwhile.

There were times when things went awry, the times that were bad.
And whenever you're down I feel twice as sad...

I know I'm not perfect, I'm sorry for the times I've made you pissed.
I hope I can make everything up to you with one long special kiss? :P

GOOD BYE 21 DECEMBER

2009-12-21T05:02:00.000-08:00

I would never ever turn back and bother by this date anymore ! enough 4 years 6 months with you.
i thought we can get back together but seems i don't have any feelings towards you. I'm sorry .. you made me hate you ..

today we supposed to celebrate our 5th anniversary but everything ruined and he kept on put the blame on me. i take the blame and accept whatsoever he said. i'm just getting sick with everything. sometime life is so unfair and such a fucked up! somehow i wondered why the hell he kept on bugging me cause we already split up and he the one wanted it like that. still my fault? oh fuck-ish

guess what i'm trying to live my life to the core , i did and manage to handle my own fucking life without him. :)
i love it.
and yeah after so long without him and being a single lady,
i think i've fallen in love with someone <33>

2009-12-20T03:15:00.000-08:00

Stolen kisses are always the sweetest ,
Cause a legal kiss
has never been better than a
stolen one ..

2009-12-20T01:58:00.000-08:00

sometimes this french ass dude made me missing him :( . miss the moments we had together .
good bye JULIEN COSSAIS

2009-12-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

I went to times square again today. ugh :( I bought a dress , top from Nichii store and ipanema sandal . weee xD
I heart my new dress :) . being a girls are rock :) .
after done the shop i went to don't know what restaurant.
lazy to continue this crap lah =.=

was a boring day out, i was like wtf dude? he raised his voice at me ? * talk to my hand *

eeee people are so annoying sometimes!!!!!!!!

2009-12-19T20:04:00.000-08:00

going out to sunway today :) . While waiting for the car I curi2 bloggy , hee
today I'm going to buy new dresses and flat / sandal.
I envy the latest panema collections , ughhh . i'm effin need a new sandal :(

I'll continue tonight .

ciao =)

BEING SINGLE SUCKS AT TIME

2009-12-19T07:49:00.000-08:00

yeah , tell me what so awesome being a SINGLE LADY ? freedom ? mingle around ? owh crap !!
no question being single rock , cheer moments , awesome and bla bla bla ..
somehow i realise i've been texting few people a day! that is so random and duh not make sense at all ! kononnya like people who reload and texting me " CARE " about me but i ain't a dumb ass to realise the hidden motive.

I'm so gonna my single status soon :) but yet still no candidates! tell you what I've fallen for someone but i don't know is he has a same feelings towards me or just one sided love :( .
this happen for the first time in my life I like a malay guy !!! lately i changed a lot. i mixed with malay , speak in malay all the time , get influence from malay friends , outting with them.
this is so weird and creepy man .
but people change right , so am i.
I LOVE BEING AROUND MALAY :))

A DAY OUT ..

2009-12-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

today went to Times Square with cha and mahzuz. I watched zombieland with mahzuz meanwhile cha with her friends. i thought the movie was a comedy but it sucks! kinda sucks! its freaked me out , duh.. hee . well, it not really sucks cause i'd laugh my ass off when the ' colombus ohio' talked shit.
pretty awesome with him today , ;)

went to super bowls . guess what i won , hahaha. he lose at me. I was like what the fuck , i got strike man! hahaha. can't believe it eyh ?

hmmm, lazy to elaborate the awesome-ness my day today. I BROKE !! :( ..

i'm outta money!

2009-12-19T06:21:00.001-08:00

2009-12-19T06:16:00.000-08:00

well , yeah this is my second account. me myself hacked my previous account , heee xD

so yeah i'm so gonna start my pretty crapping here. actually i'm kinda upset with this new account.
all the memories i've been wrote in my previous bloggy gone :( ..